Your life shall always be comfortable
I believe in a bunch of things, yet when I wanna pin something down, I can't write a thing. It feels diluted, like all my beliefs have been combined into one big thing I can't seem to figure out what it means. I used to be selfish. I should know this—have I forgotten? For much of my time in this world, I wasn't a good person, but I believe that's probably okay. It's okay to not be a good person as long as you eventually grow out of it. We don't know when this is going to happen; it feels unfair to criticize someone who doesn't appear to grow. Growth is something that is always important in one's life. Changing is scary, I see as better when you don't know it's in progress. It feels more like a seamless transition in your life. Is it good though? I don't know for sure but, it's probably better. I mean, I noticed my problems and my growth had some spikes. Mine wasn't that seamless because I had embodied a bunch of my relatives' beliefs, and the spikes are me realizing that it's futile to avoid self-awareness. Of course, I can't blame them—right?. The good side is that I eventually grew into someone who that is less selfish and wants to inspire others to grow as well. I don't want other people to be in the same place I was because that's fucking stupid. I don't want other people to want to be in any other place than their own. I was stupid. I am stupid right now. I always was stupid, though I embrace it and don't let it drive my next bad decision. Many of those I just wish I never made them in the first place, but I also value them because I wouldn't know how I would feel if they didn't happen. I felt terrible. You don't always know when your next bad decision is coming, and it will eventually come; doesn't matter if you're a regular man, woman, or Mother Teresa. There is always room for growth. Growth is something that is always important in one's life.
Music ideas feel like plant seeds. Assuming you aren't forcing them to grow like a market-ready greenhouse, they grow slowly. They can grow healthy if you take good care of them. They can grow poorly if you let them grow in a bad environment or let bad things happen to them. Even if you take good care of them, they may not turn out as big as you expected, as small as you expected, as healthy as you expected, etc. Multiple things are going on that make this unfigureoutable. You don't know what awaits you in the future. There are so many factors, yet you may know very well when a plant is healthy and thriving. Music ideas feel like your own children. Assuming you aren't forcing them to grow like you, they grow slowly. They can grow healthy if you take good care of them. They can grow poorly if you let them grow in a bad environment or let bad things happen to them. Even if you take good care of them and inspire them to inherit your values as a good person, they may not turn out as someone's good as you expected or as someone who knows how to drive the highway of uncertainties that life just throws out in your out of nowhere. There are so many factors. You're also on the highway, yet you may know very well when your little boy or girl is healthy and thriving. This is a ride full of uncertainty; it's exciting.
It's weird to see so many people avoiding the uncomfortable and uncertain. I'm statistically supposed to be a part of them—that's wicked. It's weird to live in a fake world; I can't seem to pinpoint if it was always like that. One may say that's contained on the internet, but it definitely goes beyond it and it feels like it's expanding further. It's weird to feel disconnected, yet I think it's the best feeling in the world because I feel unstoppable. It won't last for long. I want people to have conversations and to get to know each other, to have fun and enjoy the same interests and discuss over conflicting opinions, yet it's easier to see a family entirely on their phones trying to escape reality and what's going on. Well, technically they're having this experience right at this moment, but they don't want to experience the boring part of it—fair. Your life shall always be comfortable. Some of our future generation would even go as far as listing their entire personalities, what kind of people they wanna put their penis on, and a specific set of pronouns—and they will get mad at you if you don't write everything down in your personal notes. They will get mad at you for not addressing them by the correct plural, correct pronoun, or correct tone indicator. You don't know this person. Their life should be comfortable if they give VIP access to exact copies of them because they will block you if otherwise. Your life shall always be comfortable.
Be always comfortable.